Annaleigh's Testimony
The Lord placed it upon my heart to write my testimony, or something close to it. I will not really recount my entire
story here, it is very long. You can read it here.
The only Reason that I am a survivor, and that I have been here to maintain and build this site is God and his grace/mercy.
During the bulk of my years of being abused, I found myself in quite a few life or death situations, that, in the natural,
I should not have survived. I am reminded of a quote from the late missionary Nate Saint, who told his son that he could
not kill the fierce Woadani tribe in self-defense because they were not ready to go to Heaven yet. Now, I am no fierce
tribesman from the Amazon, but I was a soul that had not yet won for the Kingdom, and I believe He allowed me to survive
the dangeous situations I encountered that I would accept Christ when I needed Him most, and perhaps so that I could do
what I am doing with this website and other efforts.
It was through my deep seated desire to heal that I first allowed the message of salvation to penetrate my heart and mind
while yet in my sins. I was browsing the survivor site of a friend from an email support group. In my pain and desperation,
I clicked on a section of the site I would have otherwise ignored, the Recovery With God section (I was practicing Wicca at
the time and through I was pretty well set in my spiritual beliefs). I basically broke down as I read Daphne's explanation
of salvation, and how recovery was indeed possible with God. That day as I lay in my bed, I asked the Lord to forgive me of
my sins, and to come into my life. Things have not been the same since.
The Lord has taken my stubborn will to keep going that had sustained me (which had albeit nearly run out in the month or so
before my getting saved) and multiplied it. Suddenly I discoverd that even under oppression of the enemy, I wanted to keep
living. I now no longer wanted to give up the fighting. And so I am here today because of that. It has not been an easy
walk with God. There are trials, there are issues. Many things are still being ironed in my life, but it is not more than I
can bear.
When I first got saved, I was in the throes of serious mental illness. Anti-psychotics would dull the voices somewhat.
Anti-depressants had proven ineffective. I was dependent on a tranquilizer, because there were several anxiety producing
situations I found myself in that I needed that medication to function. I am happy to say that the anti-psychotics and
anti-depressants are much more effective, much of the symptoms are under control. And anxiety is such a distant memory in
my life that I am unable to tell you exactly when I was able to stop taking the medication for it, and exactly when the
doctor said it was no longer necessary to take it. These are all positive developments, and I am looking forward to the
next phase in my healing, which I hope will be the gradual decrease of my medication levels. It would be so awesome to no
longer need psychiatric meds! :)
So, there you have it. God is good.
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